Tales of being a pilot

I am thinking of putting some of my pilot stuff on EBay. It is beginning to look less and less like I will ever return to the air. Between money, health and life in general - I just don't see me returning to get my Commercial Certificate any time soon. It is sometimes hard to remember I AM a Pilot. I did the time, I took the training --- when I walked away I had over 900 hours in my logbook. I wish I had at last made it to 1000. The thing is - I never was very good. I mean, I did eventually get my Private and then my Instrument, but I think it took me twice as long as it would have anyone else. I sort of attribute that to that "life in general" part. I was in a baD place (minD wise) at the time of my training and to say my "head was in the clouds" --- was both figuratively and literally. Another story for another time...