Its the weekend and I'm dreading it.

I hate the weekends. Mind you I don't want to be working at my job on them, but I just don't like them. Monday through Friday - life seems so organized. You get up, you know what you're going to do and then you go to it. Suddenly Saturday slips in and you have no schedule that has to be followed and you're adrift, torn between doing house work, working in the yard or becoming a weekend couch potato. Whichever you do - will be the wrong choice. There is no right answer. Then you will turn around and it will be Sunday evening and the weekend will be gone and you will regret that you didn't accomplish by half what you had planned to do. Only, you didn't plan anything --- remember?

those who think they know everything...

annoy the hell out of those of us who do! Argh! Okay, I really don't know everything - I don't even pretend to know everything, but from time to time I make the mistake of adding what little knowledge I have on a given subject to a couple of egroups that I am on. I don't know why I do this, because I honestly feel that I am for the most part ignored, BUT on occasion --- I really do know something and think that my .02 cents worth might actually help someone. Well, on this particular day - I offered some advice to a writer on a list I am on and then someone came back and pretty much made it sound like I don't know what I am talking about, but I actually do. It basically comes down to --- there are often many ways to do the same thing and just because someone doesn't do it the same way you do - doesn't make their way wrong. Of course - the person that responded to me - didn't see it that way. So now here I sit - stewing, wondering why in the world did I even post on that stupid list?

A month into 40

People try to tell you that 40 is a great age to be. Well, so far - I just don't see it. All I have been able to think about is I am now half-way to 80 and look at all the things I have yet to accomplish. Not that I haven't accomplished some things. I can fly a plane. I took a PI class. I've been to Ireland. The problem is - I just am not where I expected to be when I hit this age. I'm not sure exactly WHERE I thought I would be, but it wasn't here. I keep feeling like I need to sale all my belongings and make a pilgramage somewhere - I just don't know what I would do once I got whereever it is that I would be going.

Survived another meeting

Today's meeting went much better, but I'm not sure why. No one had much to say today, so maybe that helped. Don't get me wrong - I think raising money for a good cause is a great idea, but watching our group try to do anything is like watching a train that has no conducter - it's only a matter of time before the whole thing becomes disrailed. Oh well, I am not going to say anything this year - I will just do my little part of things and try not to watch the rest of it.

This blog things not quite as easy....

as I would have thought. It would seem like very little effort would be needed to each day share some whimisical part of my life with the masses, but some days I have nothing to say and some days I just don't have time. Tomorrow I meet with the network again. I'm sort of dreading it - never have I seen so much disorganization and I just have so much trouble dealing with it. At least it's only two hours. I guess it could be worse....

What is it with parents today?

I don't understand parents today. Of course I don't have kids and perhaps if I did - I might think differently, but I just don't get it. Tonight on our local news a mother was complaining because her child was taken off a school bus by the driver after the child was beating the other children with a broom stick. The parent didn't seem concerned that her child might have killed one of the kids or put them in the hospital. Nope, instead she was concerned because the bus driver dragged the child off the bus to get him away from other kids. When did parents decide that no matter what - it is never their child's fault? What did this woman think the driver should have done? Talk nice to her child and ask him not to do it again? Then the news has to show the little boy and you can tell he thinks the whole thing is hilarious. I bet he will be one of those kids on tv one day that shot a gun off into a crowd or beat his girlfriend up. He already knows he can get away with that kind of thing. I just don't get it!

more on the network

The other day I mentioned the network I am part of. Well, here's a little more to the story. Last year we held this charity event for the first time. The two members that have been there the longest --- slowly, but surely took the project over and the rest of us became mere pawns in their plans. This caused several people to get upset - self included and we lost a member or two because of it. Well, here were are again --- new year, same thing. The first meeting we had to discuss everything for this year -- people volunteered and jobs were assigned. Now, one by one again - the same two are taking the project over and everyone else is just left wondering what is going on. I keep asking myself - why am I a part of this? It just upsets me. I can't stand it when I start doing a project and then someone else takes it over. I once had a job where a certain co-worker was notorious for this. If I need help - I'll let you know --- if you don't want me working on something - why did you ask me in the first place? At least back then I was getting paid to put up with this kind of stuff --- now --- I just keep wondering why I'm there!

what am I doing here?

I am part of a network group that gets together once a month to promote pet sitting in our local area. For some insane reason we decided last year to raise money for a charity. Not that this is not a good cause, but the thing the other people seem to not realize is --- that when people don't get paid for their work - other things take more importance to them and getting anyone to volunteer to do something becomes almost impossible. So tonight I am sitting at this meeting and there should be 12 of us and there are 5. It becomes clear very fast that two of them are running the show, two are giving ideas that aren't being listened to and there I sit - wondering why I gave up watching American Idol to be there. Still, I kept asking myself - "what am I doing here?" --- Still it is for a good cause....